I'll Never Forget

Found this while looking through my notes app. From 2025

It's 1:00 in the morning and I have to get up at 6 but...

I'll never forget the late night snacks

The long, loud, quiet and short rides to and from school

Or the bantering in the back of the classrooms

I'll never forget the long and deep conversations at midnight

The laughter and jokes we shared between us

Or the probes and jestering to get on eachothers nerves

I'll never forget the family Bible readings

The good ones and the bad

Or the dinner table conversations about almost everything

I'll never forget the layouts of each house

The holes and scratches in every room 

Or the memories they all hold that we only know

I'll never forget the animals we raised

The sheep, pigs, chickens, dogs, fish, cats, mice, rabbits, birds etc.

Or the driveway to the barn we all treaded so much

I'll never forget the school hallways

The bustling racket, and all the slow walkers 

Or the classroom chattering while the teacher almost blows up

I'll never forget my childhood though I must move on

All the best times off my life with the people and places I love

Or the small priceless memories with each sibling

I miss my childhood where responsibilities were getting dressed and making my bed

When nap time still existed and school was fun

And when we weren't restricted by society and reputation

❤️

Thoughts

 [5:53 PM]

I forgot how to pin a message to this chat so I went to the pins tab at the top of the screen and found a pin from 2020. It was interesting.

[5:53 PM]

Interesting to look at my interests 6 years ago.

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Interesting to see how much my life has changed since then.

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How my life isn't anything like I would've thought it would be.

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As I scrolled, I came across pictures,

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links,

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little notes I made so I don't forget assignments and tasks.

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I followed myself through classes, times of the years, different houses and schools.

[5:55 PM]

Everything kept changing.

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What I wanted kept changing.

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Things that now seem so unimportant, but were a big deal for me then.

[5:56 PM]

I related to these messages more and more as I got closer to the bottom of the chat.

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Things like car listings,

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graduation,

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college,

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scholarships.

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And yet, my biggest interest at one point,

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was a white board.

[5:57 PM]

And an eraser that would magnetically stick to the board.

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I wanted that board to hang on the outside of my bedroom door.

[5:58 PM]

I came across links that I don't even remember being interested in or wanting,

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but when I opened them and saw the product.

[5:58 PM]

My screen takes me back 6 years to when I was only 12.

[5:59 PM]

To the times when my favorite thing was my sister’s birthday presents,

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and how they really needed a photoshoot in bad lighting on a gringy couch.

[6:00 PM]

Or to a list of pictures of one thing arranged in a different style multiple times.

[6:00 PM]

That was for a class assignment that I hated.

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And then I come down to the bottom of the list.

[6:01 PM]

To where I'm taken up with apartments,

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work placements for school,

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resumes and cover letters,

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my most recent school assignments. 

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And I start to miss 12 year old me,

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so happy just taking a picture of my little sister.

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I look through my memories to that time.

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And then to me.

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Sitting on the couch, on my laptop in a dark room,

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crisscross with a screen in front of me,

[6:03 PM]

no little kids being loud around the corner or up the stairs,

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nothing strewn all over the floors.

[6:03 PM]

Everything is clean,

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quiet,

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peaceful.

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And yet I'm still missing the chaotic life back home.

[6:03 PM]

Even when, when I am there I feel trapped.

[6:04 PM]

Insignificant.

[6:04 PM]

I realize now,

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that what I'm missing the most isn't the chaos.

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But the happy times and good memories;

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the eruptious laughter at the dinner table,

[6:05 PM]

walking down memory lane with my siblings,

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being idiots with my brothers,

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and having late night conversations and hang outs in my older sister’s room.

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I'm not missing the chaos.

[6:05 PM]

I'm missing the happiness and love I had when I was there.

[6:08 PM]

Just a thought…

Beautiful Day

    It's been so long since I've last posted but today was so beautiful I couldn't resist taking a dozen or two pics! It started with me wanting to record the birds becsause they reminded me of Beethoven's Fur Elise! I was quite supprised with how accurate the birds were! ...well, accurate enough to remind me of the tune!

After that I decided to go around at take pics of the beautiful day! I hope you enjoy them!

                          

                   The birds singing in our backyard                 Beethoven - Für Elise (Piano Version)

I love how viberant all the colours are!

Everything's beginning to bloom and grow!

        

                     Daisies in the 'used to be' garden                                We have a strawberry plant!

                                   Mid-afternoon                                                                 Full Bloom!

                                   A well worn path                                                 Lou Lou playing outside

                                                                           Tangerine & Olive

                                           Molly                                                It looks so pretty beside the wood 

                                                                                                                    and the fence!